Static
Life is moving way too fast right now.
Actually, scratch that - everyone else's lives around me are moving way too fast for me right now. Friends of mine are doing things, going places, settling down into life-long relationships and such... sometimes I feel like I'm completely stuck in comparison.
In this past week, I've said goodbye to a friend who is leaving to go to France for a year, talked to another friend about her relationship with her boyfriend and their potential marriage within the next year or so, and run into a friend from junior high who is now 6 months pregnant. My baby sister will be legal to drink come next week, on the same day that another friend leaves the country to travel many others over the next year.
Apparently, the way I've chosen involves answering very personal yet open ended questions in 700 characters or less. All I can do is hope that it will be good enough for the complete strangers ranking my worthiness. Maybe I'm the only one who finds this entirely ridiculous.
Don't get me wrong - I don't believe that my entire identity or worth is found in my career, my marital/relationship status, or my geographic location. I don't think I define my life by milestones. It's just that it's been so long since I've had one that isn't "first flat tire while driving" or "first pie crust made from scratch".
I'm stuck mid-stride with my foot in the air, just waiting for it to come down on something solid.
Actually, scratch that - everyone else's lives around me are moving way too fast for me right now. Friends of mine are doing things, going places, settling down into life-long relationships and such... sometimes I feel like I'm completely stuck in comparison.
In this past week, I've said goodbye to a friend who is leaving to go to France for a year, talked to another friend about her relationship with her boyfriend and their potential marriage within the next year or so, and run into a friend from junior high who is now 6 months pregnant. My baby sister will be legal to drink come next week, on the same day that another friend leaves the country to travel many others over the next year.
Apparently, the way I've chosen involves answering very personal yet open ended questions in 700 characters or less. All I can do is hope that it will be good enough for the complete strangers ranking my worthiness. Maybe I'm the only one who finds this entirely ridiculous.
Don't get me wrong - I don't believe that my entire identity or worth is found in my career, my marital/relationship status, or my geographic location. I don't think I define my life by milestones. It's just that it's been so long since I've had one that isn't "first flat tire while driving" or "first pie crust made from scratch".
I'm stuck mid-stride with my foot in the air, just waiting for it to come down on something solid.
posted by Sabs at 10:25 PM
1 Comments:
I feel ya.
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